8a perasoun, oi meres

Eipa na 3efygw ap tous efialtes kai na kinhsw shmera, ena magiko synais8hma:

Elpida,

htan to monadiko aga8o pou 3efyge ap to kouti ths amyalhs Pandwras, otan o Dias thn esteile sthn gh, gia na timwrhsei tous an8rwpous, pou ema8an ta eyergethmata ths fwtias..
Odhgei sto 8ayma otan to pykno skotadi vasileuei pantou.. dinei nohma sthn opoia ypar3h..

Elpizw
shmainei prosdokw, epi8ymw, zw, yparxw, stoxeyw, oneireyomai..

.. efialtika

Einai pragma afysiko, san moira kolasmenh..

Akouw to post tou Swkrath, kai meta me akolou8ei h siwph, h nekrikh siwph. M akolou8ei amhxana, isws logo ths avyssou, pou mas xwrizei..

Na tan..!
Na 3ekinousame ap thn arxh.. San na prokeitai gia paixnidi, mia nea partida as poume..

Me vlepw..
Pente xronia argotera.. Orfanh apo patera ..&.. h mana mou exei fygei pia..! Enoxh & ponos.. Ma, as einai.. E3isorropoun sthn skepsh: ekopsa ton omfalio lwro kai einai kalytera, den 8a skotwnetai ka8hmerina ap thn apousia tou patera mou..

Me 3anakoitw..
Isws pio nea, pio freskia, pio agnh.. ntymenh sta mayra.. Isws, isws kai ligo talaipwrh.. Dyo axna mayroi kykloi sta matia mou, to martyroun.. H fwnh mou agourh, veloudinh, ma synama me mia ypopsia vraxnadas, thn kanei texnhth..

Einai ekei..
Oles oi palies anamnhseis, akinhtes.. Mono.. Mono egw e3akolou8w na prospa8w na kinh8w, kyrieumenh ap thn amhxania, thn anhsyxia, ton 8ymo, ypo thn prosmonh tou 8aymatos..

Voltara, symvatika panw mou.. Me eida pio diereunitikotera..

- Posa xrhmata exeis?

Mias kai h stigmh htan katallhlh, metrw ta xrhmata, dyo fores, ypodeigmatika.. 8a synexisw thn poreia perpatontas.. Exontas thn kryfh elpida ths epeyfhmias pou armozei ston ka8e a8lhth.. Ti ki an eimai koritsi anari8mhto, eimai koritsi ikano.. Ki as me kerdizei o ka8e antipalos..

-Exw ..! & gia to treno .. & gia ton foro sthn pylh tou Agiou Petrou, an xreiastei..!

Ki efyga..

efialtika

Vouth3a, kyriolektika sto pisw ka8isma.. San na me esprw3e dynatos anemos.. Xwris na to exw apofasisei pragmatika.. Epiasa pato.. Vre8hka mprosta sta matia tou ta3itzh, apegnwsmenh..

-Loipon ? Gia pou ?

Tou xamogelasa, apro8uma, pseutika, ka8isa sthta, akinhta, pisw ap thn 8esh tou synodhgou me vlemma strammeno sto pou8ena.. Enstiktwdws, tou ekmysthreutika..

-Ston sta8mo lewforeiwn..!

Mayrh skhnh..! Diadromh, apo mayro skotadi, pissa.. San na htan h stigmh, pou skontafta se ena adiorato skalopati..

Eniw8a, san Odysseas, ma.. aytos htan Omhrikos hrwas, vasilias ths I8akhs. Me thn panourgia tou kyriepse thn Troia.. Htan e3allou symvolo.. Andras, pou elampse.. Andras..! Andras.. opws ametrhtoi alloi, me pra3eis apeires & aretes a3io8aymastes..!
Andres..! Andres, me proswpikothta.. Andres, akatapaystoi, zwhrwn eikonwn, diaforwn apoxrwsewn.. Me anipervlito vlemma, mouskoula, sofoi, parathrhtes..

-Trelh vroxh.. Monologisa..

Ais8anomoun, olo kai xeirotera.. Taseis fyghs..! Taseis naytias..!
Prospa8hsa na parw va8ies anases.. Einai efialtiko.. Einai odynhro.. Einai katastash outopikh, efialtikh.. Dedomenou oti zousa kati pseytiko, se keino to meros, htan san na eixan 3exasei na valoun aera.. Hmoun pyrovolimenh.. Hmoun nekrh.. Ma den yphrxe panw mou, kamia porfyrh khlida aimatos..

3afnou, vghka ap to ta3i, trexontas..
Ta podia mou, 8a mou epetrepan thn diafygh.. 8a efeyga trexontas ap "thn katakomvh".. Hmoun perhfanh.. Den 8a me evlepe kaneis na trexw & na 3ernaw.. Diesxisa ton dromo, rixthka sthn trexala, xwris na koitazw ton ta3itzh..

Eixa thn valitsa mou, mazi.. Ta yparxonta mou.. Kai etrexa.. Synexisa thn vouvh Odysseia, anephreasta, me vlemma anekfrasto, rigmeno sto keno..


.. Ki akoma, trexw ..! Efialtika..! ..S sss S.. Mystika..!